Chemo #5 is set for tomorrow…I’ve had such good 2 weeks…cleaned the apartment from top to bottom…went shopping with my folks…celebrated my 5th wedding anniversary yesterday watching my hubby play WOW…I’m dreading tomorrow…I know what to expect, I know what meds to take to combat it…still…will my counts be up this time? I sure hope so, because that would postpone everything and I’m soooo close to being finished…radiation to follow but that won’t make me sick, at least I hope not…so close it’s hard not to worry. The doctor says I’m cancer free and that is wonderful…still in the back of my mind I wonder if it’ll come back. This has by far been the hardest thing I’ve ever done…it’s been good in that it’s made me realize how much my husband loves me and I him…I’ve let go of the hurts my parents caused and accepted their love…I’m re-bonded with my oldest sister after she came to terms with it and my middle sister has been there from the start…it’s nice to have my family back…of course my son has been calling to check on me from school…I’m blessed and I know now just how much…now to get through tomorrow and start the countdown to May 21 for the last one! Good thoughts my way, my friends…I need to have no fear!