It’s almost Christmas!! I’ve finally started feeling excited about it…my son is home from college, although not staying here with me…the girlfriend has been officially accepted at the new university and is leaving at the first of the year…the husband is off work from the 23rd until the 3rd…and me? I’m healing from the surgery and feeling more confident than I have in a while. I still don’t know the diagnosis, but I am feeling confident that I can handle whatever comes my way!  I cut my hair last night…super short…love it! I went to a Christmas dinner at my aunt’s house and the pictures taken, though good, looked like I was trying to hide under all the hair around my face. Not as flattering as I thought it was…so I cut it, of course I’ve been looking for an excuse to do that for weeks now…lol…crazy I know, but it feels like a million pounds have been lifted off my shoulders…not from the weight of the hair, but from the weight of trying to be someone I’m not…longer hair, thinner body have always been someone else idea of who I should be…not my husbands, he is constantly telling me to just be myself, but I do not want longer hair and let’s face it unless I get off my behind and move, my body will always look this way…and you know, I’m really okay with that. So last night I quit trying to fit into a mold provided by people who aren’t even a part of my life anymore and decided to take control of myself…perhaps it’s this unknown that I’m facing that is making more confident or perhaps the voice I heard in my dream telling me to “move on” is leading me into a different path. I know this is a ramble of sorts, but I am so happy today with me, with my life and I am so in love with my husband and so happy with the man my son is becoming that I can’t help but ramble a bit. So here’s to a wonderful holiday…a good diagnosis…and life…sweet life…may we all enjoy!