Tomorrow is my last radiation…then I will begin the monthly hormone treatments until February 2011…this journey is almost over…I read yesterday here, “the journey is all. The destination is beside the point.” I’ve been searching for a why and a what next for all these months…desparately trying to give a purpose to this disease to better understand…but I’ve realized by those words, “the journey is all.” that I don’t need an answer for either…I’ve learned so much about myself…I’m stronger than I ever thought I could be…as is my marriage…I’ve mended hurt feelings with my parents and sisters…I’ve put closure to things in my past…I’ve found who my true friends are and who were only clearing their consciences in case I didn’t make it…I’ve learned to love and appreciate those around me…I’ve realized that life is a gift to be enjoyed now not constantly waiting for some event to be happy…my marriage is strong…I know I’ve already said that, but my husband showed me what “for better or for worse, in sickness and in health” truly mean…now I’m ready to move on…back to the normal before cancer struck…the little one is coming back to catch the bus as she is starting kindergarten…she has grown up a lot in the past few months…just as I have…life is good…the journey has been good…